You - are not a victim

I just found that icon and decided it will probably be useful for when I'm face deep in honors work, regretting my decision to at least make an attempt to break away from my overwhelming laziness. And who knows? Maybe being productive in something like this will inspire some sort of cohesive thought for my future, because that shit needs to get done but my mind and motivation keep resisting.
That and I (finally) finished Kingdom Hearts II, so I thought that I would celebrate by breaking in some of the fandom icons.
Back to honors, does anyone have any boy-love manga recommendations? I'm pretty sure I have enough to go on, but I want to make sure that I have all the bases covered (and the more I have the more I can use as an excuse for doing work).

So here I am, bitter that I'm in my Norfolk Terrace dorm (not) revising for my Exam that I know absolutely shit about, instead of in Boston, galavanting with the lovely dorks during this most glorious time of the year.
Yet another one of those moments when I wish with all my lazy little heart that apparation/teleportation was humanly physically possible.
Alas, it isn't, so I'm watching Asian horror films and reverting to my high school days when online quizzes were the thing to do. It gave me a giggle.



hahaha! That is one kickass party!!

Corner of shame pt. II
I'm back again :/

Concert times= awesome. Kyo from Dir en Grey pretty much stole my heart, and Jimmy Urine is a complete spazz (but we knew that). Fagget and Merciless Cult were played, therefore I am satisfied.
Me/Social times = ...
I am not one to learn my lessons...
eh, whatever.
It's 5:13 in the am over here, I should sleep.

I'm trying to work up the motivation in order to continue studying for sensation and perception, but I'm about to just stop and go in with what I already know, and hope for the best. I did all the reading, I studied extremely hard for the quiz that was on 3 of the 4 chapters the test is on. The question is, do I remember everything I studied?
I hope so, or I'll fail. I will probably regret this while I'm taking it.
But I'm going home right after, and I just want to do that. I've been in the library for far too many hours this week, and a good portion of those are now uselessly wasted.
I need a break.
Hence me wasting time on this thing.
And listening to crazy nonsensical Japanese music.
I saw Twilight. It made me laugh. A lot. I kind of appreciated the extreme amounts of awkward that occurred in that movie. And the faces. They made some mighty awesome faces ::cough::Jasper<3::cough::. Interviews Robert Pattinson (Edward) make me laugh as well.
No more studying will get done at this rate.

OOHH yeah!! Alexander Revisited. Bagoas. Kissing. =
Mother's X-Mas Presents - 3 (only one actually obtained-but 2 planned and obtainable)
Everyone Else - 0 (I got nothin. Including ideas)
I owed her anyway.
...I've got nothing to procrastinate with anymore.

oh yeah. KAKASHI IS ALIVE OR I WILL MURDER SOMEONE
now that the fandom outburst is off my chest, I shall go.

I need to make an effort to be better with people. Seeing people. Making plans. First moves, etc.
I fail at all of those things. Epically.
That and driving. Direction. Transportation in general.
...It's that time of the summer again. I sense a pattern.
Maybe I'm just projecting...probably. Stutter.
I'm going to stop before I do a real lj post.

I am constantly dealing with mites. Mice with mites. That are dying. It's a horrible thing that won't go away.
Though this pet store is giving me a higher insect tolerance. Through exposer.
I am going to resist the urge to say something extremely dorky right now.
I was bitten by a red tail boa!!! Not badly, just a little bit on my finger by the knuckle. Why am I more excited about than I should be?
I still want one. After college, that will be my first pet that will be my own.
The one that bit me was actually just found after he was thought to be stolen. There's another one who is still missing, though. I hope an old lady doesn't find him (although, secretly, I kinda hope one does, only without the side of lawsuit).
Wii is fun. I got one for my birthday. That's coming with me to school, along with the Bleach game that I will soon buy. I have the Naruto game, and I opened up all of the characters (though I was extremely disappointed in the fact that there is NO KIBA. Why? They have freakin' useless Ino, but no Kiba. The hell?!) I also want to kill Gaara's voice actor. Seriously, he best watch out. He made me cry a little with how much he FAILS.
I need to be more social. I want to see some people but I'm:
a. Too busy.
b. Too lazy to contact them, because most of the time after work all I want to do is pass out.
c. Can't contact them.
I went to the fireman's carnival with Carmen, which was a fun time. Finally a nice summer night, without the recent abundance of stifling humid air. I forgot how old I am, and got Carmen's hair caught in my eyebrow. Good times.
I'm going to stop working August 8th, to give me the rest of the summer off so that I can actually have a summer. And maybe a life too, but who knows if that will happen.
My hair is the longest it's been in a while. It needs a cut. After I stop working, that's first on my list.

Oh yeah, Queen II and A Night at the Opera are great CDs. Lately, I've been listening to a lot of Queen, and it's fun. I blame Megan. We have sing alongs while walking the dogs. We are terribly obnoxious, it's awesome.

Edit- The second boa was found. By a little girl. He lunged at her, but she was (thankfully) more amused than frightened.

c> This makes me cry, so I had to turn it into an icon.
Choice Pet supply is an evil place. I do not recommend it.
It's eating me literally. I want to scratch off my skin.

My employment quandary for this summer has been thankfully (though somewhat regrettably) solved. Choice Pet called me Tuesday and asked that I start Thursday, which I did. I'm back in the Fairfield store. Except Sunday through Thursday, since I was thrown to Norwalk when Fifo called me Wednesday. I should be reimbursed for gas money (>$4+!!!!!) but that won't happen.
So I'll have a long, hard, and tiring schedule for the summer.
Europe money Europe money Europe money
Just repeat that over and over. It's not so bad.
Anyway, I have to dork out rantingly for a bit, though spoilers for things like the June 2008 Saiyuki Reload chapter and Naruto chapter 402 are inevitable. Time for the fake cut!!! Let's see if I can do this.
( Spoilers and dork outs Ahoy! )

Oh yeah, my sociology class is cancelled, but the add/drop is closed for the summer so I can't sign up for another class until it's opened. Needless to say, I have no idea when that is. But at least a spot opened in one course I wanted! But now I'm going to be worried about getting it, because my options are slim. Slim being an understatement.
Most heinous.

pps. Dark side of the rainbow is kinda interesting, when timed correctly. Coincidence?

WHYYYYYYYYY!?!?!?!?!
I really don't like my schedule for next semester, but this class is being offered at the SAME TIME as one of the classes I have to take (one of the two...out of four).

Zombies, Witches and Cyborgs: Animating Gender and Monstrosity

It looks like sooo much fun. I just died inside. I'm about to drop that shit, srsly. I think I might.

Watch I'm too late.

Oh, and I'm gonna have to look for a new job, since I probably won't be able to get my place at CP back because their staff is currently full.
I don't mind all that much, really (except for Nancy). I just hope I find one. Preferably one I know more about.

ps. leegaara=so much love. Diplomatic Relations just ate my face.
Had to throw another dorkish squee in here somewhere.

So far, my next fall schedule may kill me. My life will be filled with psychology...then creative writing. That's not random at all.
MWF- 11:15-12:10: Intro to Psychopathology. If I had more options, I would drop this shit, but I don't, so I'm screwed.
And it's a Friday class. My luxury weekends will come to an end.
TuTh- 8:45-10:10: Sensation and Perception. SO EARLY!!!! But it at least sounds interesting. I'll probably end up taking a lab based off of this.
11:55-1:20- Biopsychology. Just because I don't want to take the Sociology class THAT badly. I want the Anthropology class, dammit. Another Soc will just be a waste of my time and effort. Interesting, probably, worth it, no.
I'll just get my Psych electives over with, leaving Norwich free for whatever strikes my fancy.
3:05-4:30- Creative Writing. With Prof. Parker. He's a cool guy, but I am terrified to take this class. I am not a creative writer, even though I wish I was (hence the class). I want this class to help me, but it also requires people reading my writing...People who can write reading my writing. I hope this doesn't end up in an epic fail.
Hop to me, plot bunnies, I am in dire need of thee.
Epic Fail.
In dork news, I've started reading the Bleach manga, after recently reading Naruto in it's entirety (my life is where?). I'm on chapter 119. I switch between that and bleach porn, because there is too much pretty and the urge to read porn is so unbearable. I often find myself in unknown and unexpected territory...Like Renji being taken by Hanatarou. Never thought I'd see that. Never thought I'd see a seme Hana. It was quite fun.
I have to go to a movie tonight, and finish my homework.

And now I have a head ache along with a fever.
Great stuff.
Classes for next semester are not looking too great. I need to take psychology classes for the minor, but most of the intro courses that are prerequisite to the upper level courses are not being offered. I'm left to choose from Sensation and Perception, Intro to Psychopathology, and Biopsych. It looks like the first two are my first choices. Maybe. I'm still thinking on it.
That leaves two more classes...
??????????????
I only need one more class for my major before the capstone (Independent Study, Internship, or Honors), and that is a social science. AKA another Sociology class(my would be third), a Public Policy Class (the only one of which that is crosslisted with LGBT Studies I already took), or an Anthropology Class, which I would take but it is not being offered until the spring, when I'll be in Norwich England. It's being offered my senior year, and I want to take it, but then I won't need to take the Sociology class this fall that I admit I would rather not take, but should as a just in case.
GAH.
I'll probably apply and see if I like it. Then drop if I hate it.
The problem is I don't like dropping classes.
My body hurts.
Then I need to facilitate making Connections, but that's offered when I'm gone as well, so I have to take that my senior year along with a psych lab, and possibly that Anthro class.
Fuck next fall.
I may take another art class, or a creative writing class just for the hell of it.
My 3 day weekend pattern has reached an end. It was nice while it lasted. It made me lazy.
So yeah, Spring '09= Me in Norwich England!

It's finally spring break. Woohoo!! As soon as Jen gets out of class we are out of here for a week.
I actually am quite fond of the week that was chosen for break, it falls perfectly.
Here is my schedual:
Friday and Saturday: True Colors Conference! I'm so excited that I get to go this year, since last year was pretty much impossible. I get to spend two days with Carmen before she's off to Florida, running around amongst the rainbow clad people. I cannot wait!
Monday and Tuesday are up in the air. Shopping is a definite. Maybe sleepover at Allison's? I hope so, I have to double check things, but that definitely should happen.
Wednesday I get my hair cut, and it's about time. I don't even know what's going on up there anymore. It's just bad things.
It's Karou inspired again. Going back to my old hair muse, before Miyavi and random video game boy. Here's the cut:


I'm also going to tweak it a little, to put a more Sanzo feel to it (yes, I know he's animated, and yes, his hair does border on mullet territory sometimes, but I'm a dork and I'm cosplaying as him. If I'm gonna do it, I'm gonna do it to the best of my abilities. I already sacrificed the purple contacts.)

Moving on to Thursday, I'm picking up Ana at the Train station and driving to Massachusetts. Crash at Jen's house and finish making our costumes.
Friday and Saturday Jen, Ana, Mackenzie and I set out for Anime Boston, with some of Jen's friends. One day we are doing Saiyuki, another Death Note (I'm Mello, so I get to break out the vinyl pants!) Just for shits and giggles, here are my people:
Sanzo:


And Mello:

Thanks to x_gh0st_x for doing this and letting me steal. It was fun...I think I had a little too much fun with it actually. One can probably be considered a fanfic drabble on crack...13...
It's all anime characters. I plan on doing this again with live action characters/people, and maybe one for strictly Bleach characters(because there are so many, and a couple were left out of this who I really want to add)
( Onward to awkward things )

Today was horribly non-productive. From the time I woke up until now, I have done nothing but sit on my ass, in my room.
I lead a terribly exciting life. I swear it's almost too much.
For a good portion of the day I watched the last 5 episodes of Nobuta wo Produce, a J-Drama. The highlight of that lovely little 10 episode show was the ending. My jaw dropped. It was riviting. Good song too. I need to do that dance.
Which makes the total number of dances that must be done...4. Three have already been attempted last weekend by Ana, Jen, Catie, a very drunk Jose, and I. The house did not appreciate it.
I've been, slowly, reading Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicals. I'm on Chapter 23, of 181. It's going to take a while.
Since returning from break, the Ana, Jen, and Kim dinner/entertainment time's feature presentation has been Dr. Who. We finished the first two seasons and have just delved into the third. It's an awesome show. Brings me back to the days when I used to watch the X-Files, except the Dr. is sillier, which is fun. I'm adding David Tennant to the list of people who make me giggle.
Since I'm on a trend of describing things I've been watching, the latest season of the L Word is pretty crazy. I can't wait until monday so I can watch the next episode on youtube.(Spoiler ALERT) Shane's back in the sexin ::cough::threesome::cough::, and Bette and Tina just made out like crazy. DRAMA! Hotness.
Oh, and Make Me a Supermodel is pretty awesome two. The episode last week was clearly the best. Chemistry. The girl couple and the guy couple were fucking hot.

I need to start on some homework. Thankfully, my only class on Monday was cancelled. That gives me a four day weekend. Nice reprieve.

On another, Saiyuki related note, I just reread vol.7 of reload, and teared up more than a little. I think my brain snapped. This time it was Gojyo/Hakkai and their blatant love for each other (Just the other day I re-read gaiden, vol. 2 and squeed about Konzen/Goku, which is just as obvious, if not moreso). If it got any more obvious, they would be making out. It would be awesome if that happened by the end of the series.
I saw raw scans (thanks to radiofreebanri) of the next 2 chapters of reload and chapter of Gaiden. SANZO vs. UKOKU SHOWDOWN BITCHES. Fucking cliffhanger though. I'm twitching in anticipation.

My first week of classes has ended, with surprising fewer casualties of whatever sanity I may have than expected. Judging by these past few days of class, this semester is promising to be a great deal easier on the stress and brain cells than the last one was (which is good, because I had some pretty intense absent minded blond moments over break. It was starting to worry me).
Though break was over too quickly, again. I didn't have enough time to do things I ment to do, or see people more, especially since I fell back into the antisocial Kim mode of not calling anyone, which was bad. Especially mixed in with work confusion. So many work scheduals, so little time.

In other news, we got a new puppy. I went puppy shopping on Saturday before break with my family, which consisted of a shelter thing the Beresly Zoo was having as well as the Monroe Shelter (where we found said new puppy, as well as old puppy Mizzie back in the day). Unfortunatley, she had to get fixed, so I did not get to take her home and play. She just got to my house yesturday.
Introducing, Scout Mackenzie (my sister chose the names, liked them both, so now she has a middle)







As you can see, she likes to jump on people, my sister in this case, and hug them. Literally hug them. It's how she won me over, because I wouldn't normally go for a golden retriever.
She's such a sweet puppy, I wish I got to play with her more, now I have to wait until March. (yes, I know she's larger than a puppy, but if you knew her, you'd call her a puppy too. She's just that special).

Yesturday was my first day off since the Saturday I got back. The result;
Total and utter exhaustion.
I was falling alseep at around 5:30 this afternoon after working my 8-3 shift.
Last night I think I fell asleep at around 12:30, and even that was pushing it (my determination to continue on my fan fiction ravaging pulled me through until then, until I literally couldn't keep my eyes open anymore. It was depressing)
So far, my list of shit to do over break has been altered. I am now adding Kyou Kara Maoh to the list of Anime to watch (I am currently at episode 10).
I am also, very hesitantly, adding watching Saiyuki reload/gunlock to my list. I am going to try to suffer through it. The past two nights gunlock has been on AMC. I watched in horror as they turned poor Hazel into an Italian, with slight transylvanian undertones, who has been possessed by a demon. Then they killed him.
What in the world? WHYY!?
Don't even get me started on the four's voices.
On second thought, maybe I won't continue on with this.
I'm on Episode 31 of Gensomaden with my mom. Needless to say, she likes it.
My father and sister hate me. Sacrifices have been made.
I got the DVDs for christmas. (YAY). Awesome good times.
I am so tired. I want sleep.
And for my head to stop hurting.

My hand is in large amounts of pain and my fingers feel like I'm an eighty year old suffering from arthritis, but I'm pretty much done. Goodbye semester of deathly hell amounts of work.
I start work on sunday. 12-7. Not much of a break, is it?
Oh well, now I can watch all the anime I want without feeling the least bit guilty. And read lots of manga. I have a list:
Manga:
Find Gravitation Scanlations online
Find Peace Maker Scanlations online
Maybe re-attempt Wild Adapter, we'll see
Re-read Saiyuki

Non-Manga Reading List
American Psycho. That's all. I'm too lazy for any others. Fan fiction will be ravaged though.

Anime:
Show Descendents of Darkness to mah Momma. Hopefully she'll like it.
Finish Ouran
xxxHolic
Chrono Crusade
Show some Saiyuki to the mother. Not sure if she'll think it's gay enough though.

I'll find others.

Greg Ayres better be at Anime Boston, or I will be very sad.
Is it too much to ask for Braden Hunt as well? Probably, but one can dream.

I also have to start on my Sanzo costume, and attempt my JTHM/Squee sneakers. Watch they come out like shit. Let's hope not.

I'll be done in one week. My classes are finally over. I have seven to nine more pages to get through on my 18-20 page research paper on the benefits of educating youth for the LGBT movements (anyone know any websites of education programs? If you do, send me links!). It's due Tuesday at 4:30. Tomorrow will be another day at the library.
Wednesday I have a psych exam at seven at night. I'm just going to study for it tuesday night and all day wednesday. I hope that will be enough. Cramtastic.
Thursday I get to tackle Sex and Gender, which should be fun. Again, it's at seven p.m. Good times.
Then, friday, I'm on my way home! For a little over a month, most of which will be spent at Choice Pet Supply. I'm twitching in anticipation.

Oh yeah, did I mention that I can't breath and I'm losing my voice? Love it. As if squeeing over Saiyuki Gaiden (which I finished, of what's out so far. woot!) wasn't bad enough, I got to squeek through it.
It definately deserved the squeeks though. There were some intense ::cough::slashy::cough:: moments. It was glorious.
...That cough was due to the cold, by the way...Of course...
I'm not a slacker. Not at all.